When you struggle to be green
For this week’s Change the World Wednesday challenge we’ve been asked to share something we’re struggling with – a green activity which is difficult to adopt in our lives.
Right now I’m struggling on balancing my desires with what I know is right…
For several years I’ve been on a decluttering mission; it beings me a sense of inner peace to have an ordered space.
I’m not the sort of person who needs a show home, or needs it to be ‘camera ready’; our house is very much a home but as I get older I realise I’m putting less and less emphasis on ‘stuff’.
I’m no longer interested in acquiring new things, I don’t like ornaments everywhere, if I’ve got one of something that works, I don’t need another and I have no need for knick knacks.
In fact, Birthdays and Christmas are becoming rapidly difficult for me to embrace because of our cultures insistence of having ‘stuff’ at the heart of it.
What I’m seeking is more meaning in life – in the celebrations and festivals I celebrate, in everyday life and certainly in my choice to spend time meditating or being in nature rather than cleaning and tidying endless ‘stuff’!
My challenge lies in disposing of the things I no longer want that were bought years before I even knew what ‘eco friendly’ meant. Nowadays I can make good choices, but in the past? Well I have a legacy of things that are just no good anymore and they aren’t recyclable either – old unmarked plastic packaging material, broken plastic toys, materials from projects that are just not good enough to reuse, salvage or pass on to anyone else.
So my decluttering over the past few years has been a half-hearted attempt and when I’ve come across something I can’t dispose of responsibly I’ve procrastinated and put it away ‘for later’.
Well my ‘for later’ life is starting to irritate me. My workload is increasing and as it does my need for order in my home increases otherwise I tip into overwhelm.
It’s a funny thing the way the Universe works. I’ve basically been given a quieter month before work ramps up in September and in that time I’ve decided to dedicate it to getting my home in order. That includes preparations for the winter months as well as a promise to myself that I will declutter and do a deep clean, so that we have a healthier and more beautiful space to live and work in.
I’ve come to the conclusion I *will* be creating landfill waste. I’ve found this a terrible burden for so long but to be honest if I don’t deal with it, someone will have to deal with it at some point; I’m only putting off the inevitable. I’ve held onto things believing that one day we will have the facilities to recycle them, but I feel like part of my life is on hold.
I’ll do the best I can, but will accept that I’ve made bad or ignorant choices in the past and that the recycling infrastructure in the UK just isn’t quite perfect yet. I have a choice: I can beat myself up about it or pat myself on the back for the great things we DO achieve as a family. And with my new promise to myself of being kind and loving towards my efforts it will be the latter…
What about you – what areas in your life do you struggle to be green?
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