Confessions of a Green Goddess
Over on Reduce Footprints, we’ve been asked to take a good, long look at our “road blocks” to green living and find some solutions.
We’re lifting the lid on all our excuses for NOT adopting a green activity and it’s pretty uncomfortable I can tell you…
As a solutions-based optimist I always reckon I can treat problems as stepping stones, not obstacles, but if I’m perfectly honest there ARE two areas where I feel completely stuck and out of control.
Eating seasonal, local food and reducing the amount we use our car.
Ok, here goes; sit tight, this isn’t pretty…
Both these road blocks come from, how shall I put it, mental health issues I guess.
For a long time now I’ve had OCD and an anxiety condition which can render me pretty immobile at times.
I’m proud to say I’ve finally given up disposable kitchen towel and that was HUGE for me because along with OCD comes a lot of hand washing and afterwards you don’t want to be ‘contaminated’ by using a reusable cloth.
However, progress in this area has allowed me to ditch the kitchen towel 90% of the time. If I’m under stress or in an unfamiliar situation then it all comes back again, but it’s mainly under control.
Anxiety and panic attacks means I need an escape route – i.e. my car. Using public transport is a no-no because of my fears of not being able to get away from a situation. I simply wouldn’t feel safe and with enough adrenaline to run a marathon surging around my body I’m not prepared to put myself under any more stress.
Eating more local, seasonal food falls under the remit of OCD. Without going into too many details, as it’s pretty tough to talk about, I find it hard to ‘trust’ sources of food so I stick with the devil I know.
Phew! That was hard and actually makes me shake to write it. When you are behind a computer screen you can create any persona you like. I come across as confident but you’d be pretty shocked to see me in ‘real life’. But I also value integrity and honesty which is why I decided to join in with the challenge and post about my demons.
In all honesty I’m not looking for solutions from readers because it’s a personal journey. I’m having therapy, increasing my self awareness, stretching my boundaries, but it’s a long, slow, journey which requires just one gentle step at a time and I don’t need to be asked if I’ve tried a, b or c. Because the abc that works for one might not work for another and I’m pretty done with the “you HAVE to try this it cured me in 5 minutes” hype.
What about you – what stops you taking the next green step on your journey? Do you find something too expensive? Are you addicted to certain products that come in non-recyclable plastic? Do you find it hard to line-dry clothes? Do you lack space to compost? Does your partner disagree with the whole ‘hippy’ movement? Do YOU think climate change is a scam so it’s not worth bothering? I’d love to hear!